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I could not have done this without the help of so many people in my life. Some where already there, and some are new that I've met on my journey toward healing. After being Discarded and utterly Destroyed by a Cluster B, Malignant, Personality Disordered Person, I am now on the journey to SELF. Those of you who have been in their clutches know how it feels to be "soul raped" and coming back from that is a long hard road. Here, I hope to bring you the tools you need to survive during that first crucial year after you've been Discarded.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Amazing Evening / Afternoon

Got a suprise last night. My roomate had a mutual friend from out of town come over for the night. I knew there was a BBQ at the house, and that there was a suprise lined up for me, but never in my wildest dreams did I think it was going to be another survivor! I was SO happy to finally meet in the flesh someone I had been speaking too for almost a year within the confines of our secure group FINALLY in the flesh. So much fun! All of us walked to the pier, rode the Carousel, ate pizza, walked on the beach for a bit. Then, back to the house for a backyard fire, chips / dip, music, beer, drinks and GREAT laughter! 1 am rolled around and my friend and I decided to watch the sun rise at the beach. So at 1 am we very HURRIEDLY went to sleep with our alarms set for 4:30am. Sunrise was due at 5:10, thank goodness I only live 4 blocks from the beach!
It was a cool morning with just a slight breeze. And the sunrise was beautiful. Then back home for a quick nap!

Again to the beach we went in the afternoon, this time with sunblock! It was odd to see so many people there, but then it is tourist season here. My roomate went off to float down the river with his friends, so it was me and my out of town guest. I had the BEST time with her. We laid on the sand and just talked and talked, waded in the water for a bit, talked more, water, laid in sand.....rinse and repeat lol.
After a few hours of that, came back to the house to drop off the beach chairs and stuff so we could go get something to eat. So off we go again a block in the other direction to get some fish and chips (American style). Played some pinball while we waited for our food, talked, laughed and talked some more.

I realized something with all this. That its really ok to spend time with friends and family, and how much I missed that. That I truly am stronger than I had given myself credit for. And that this really IS by far the happiest I have been in a long, long, long time.

In two weeks I get to visit her, and we shall see what new experiences her corner of the world bring.

I still have a lot of places to visit, Boston needs a re-do, theres still so much to see there, Cape Cod is in the next few months, Chicago and New York as well. After the winter I'm shooting for London, Ireland, and Italy..........