Here for 5 days and I LOVE it!

Even tho the video I posted is of Portland, Maine I only live 20 mins from Portland. Or 8 mins by Train. Can you believe that? TRAIN!! How cool is that!

The charm is here just as abundantly as it is in Downtown Portland tho. I have been 'non-stop' mostly since I got here. There is so much to see and do! Even tho the weather is still pretty chilly (downright COLD for this CA girl lol) it is beautiful. 4 seasons again are going to be amazing! I have missed and wanted 4 seasons in my life for soooooo long! After so many years in just 2 seasons during my life....4 is really going to be awe inspiring and a treat!

I've done the 'small tourist town' before. It didn't work out so well. First of all, the town was so far from everything. Downtown ANYWHERE was at least an hour drive. Work for me was a 2 hour drive. The theme was German, period. Slow in the off season, busy during the tourist season, the streets closed up at 5 pm and you were pretty much 'stuck' in your home.

But here......here you get the quaint buildings or the lakes if you want.  I have access to the city (which doesn't loose it's charm) in a reasonable amount of time. All the homes around me are so full of personality I feel like I'm waking up to a Christmas Card every morning. And next week I'm planning on going to Boston for the first time in my life. I have wanted to visit that city for years and years. And here it is right 'next' to me. Only a 2 hour train ride. Heck, that I can do standing on my head! LOL

And one of the important (for me) things I'm going to do is take pictures of Boston! Cause I'M actually GOING TO GO there....not 'pretend' I did with some made up story to make myself look good. ROFL (pathetically funny to me now)

5 days here and my jaw still hits the ground with the area. I know everything happens in its own time, I just wish this opportunity would have come across my plate so much sooner.  But then who knows. If it had, I might not have moved forward with it. Ah heck, I'm here now, and that's what matters..


Fishing season starts in 5 more days. And soon is the blueberry picking season (FREE!) Lobster also comes into season next month. The stores in my town start opening up. The Paddle Boat gets put back on the river. The ones like they have in New Orleans. The weather gets warmer (thank goodness!) and the trees start to get there leaves back. All the fruit and vegetables stands open up again, and many are only a block from where I live. It's going to be like a Farmers Market every day. There is a lake everywhere you turn here. And everything is going to be so lush and green.....boggles my mind how much beauty there is here.

Another thing I love is that people are so NICE! We drive down the street and people just wave. For no reason, they just wave. I asked Ryan why they did that, was it normal? (Not being from here I ask LOTS of questions about stuff!) and he said not really. That made me laugh! Well, I guess the Cosmos' are doing what they can to make me feel welcome. :)

It will get crowded with the hustle and bustle of the tourists, but I look forward to that. I am ALSO looking forward to after tourist season is over. I'm sure by then I will have had my fill of traffic, and crowds and the like. It will be almost like 'home' (back in L.A.) while the tourists are here, but I just love the peace right now.

And today we are going to go visit the nearby waterfalls.....Can you BELIEVE THAT?? NEARBY WATERFALLS!!!!

Yep, I'm gonna turn into a prune being here. I love the water, I miss swimming like I would miss air if it was taken away. Going to be hard to find me on dry land when I'm not working if I have my way!

2 more days...

Well, the grand kids have gone home and the evening is quiet. I leave in two days. I started to feel a bit melancholy while hugging them goodbye, but at the same time was so comforted by their excitement for me. My oldest grand daughter (she's 9) said she was going to write me a letter every day. I thought of the expense of stamps (LOL) and told here we can always use email. Her eyes lite up! That lightened my heart a bit.

So many emotions all over the place, but yet, a feeling of calm and peace over it all. So tomorrow I pack for the last time. I've actually been packed for a week, but that was to make sure I had what I needed to bring for the short term. I can actually get the rest later. I read a poem today that touched my heart so deeply that I think I shall incorporate this as a mantra while I meditate:


Let the light in
with each breath I take
Let it reach every corner of me
and chase the darkness away
with each breath that I release -
release with it
all negativity
Let nothing but peace
surround my being
Let nothing but peace
be my feeling
Give me the strength
to love myself
as I love others
to give to myself
as I give to others
Help me not to dwell on my past
and the things that can't be undone
May I  believe in the future
and all the things I can become
Let love be all that dwells
and be all that expels
From within me.
Help my spirit to truly be free...

All day long I've gotten 'messages' like the one above. Letting me know everything will be ok. If you pay attention to Angelic Number combination's as I do, then you know the significance of repeated numbers and/or the attention made to pay attention to certain number sequences. Today's number was 3:00. And the message that goes along with this combination is:

3's and 0's, such as 300 or 330 - God and the ascended masters are trying to get your attention, most likely with respect to a matter related to your Divine purpose. Is there any guidance that you've been ignoring lately? If so, you may be feeling stuck right now. This number sequence is heaven's way of alerting you to the fact that you must do your part in the co-creation process. This means listening to and following your Divine guidance to take certain actions.

I have interpreted this as what I'm doing is the RIGHT thing for me. I have been feeling 'stuck' the past week due to "short timers" knowing the move towards my new life was coming, but wasn't here yet. I need to do my part? Oh heck yea, that means get ON that plane and don't worry.......listening to and following my Divine guidance? My desire is even stronger now. This is a pull I can't put into words. I just know that in my heart, deep within my heart, is a sense of knowing that this is the best thing for me. I have halted turning inward the past few days. My time with my grand daughters and my daughter was more important to me right now. With only a few days left to see them, I felt that I could take a 'break' from all the soul healing I've been doing. But it seems that tonight, now that the house is quiet and the girls have left, the universe is letting me know that it hasn't forgotten about me! And while I sit here and try to type this, I am hit left and right with messages, emails, postings, YouTube video's and the like of stuff that is yet again empowering, validating, comforting, and enriching.

So tonight, I will light a white candle and meditate again. And as I do this, I not only will be asking my Angel to keep my heart safe and warm, but I will also be extending a white light to the people of Japan. To help assist them with peace in their hearts. And as I lay my head down tonight, I will dream of trees, streams, lakes to swim and fish in, the new sites I am to see and experience, the cities, the towns, the people who are going to be coming into my life.....and all the new things I have in store to learn and see and do.

I really realize now......in this moment in time.....it has hit me. I am running TO something, not FROM anything. I am going to be purging a lot of garbage I've keep inside all my life, and while that part will be hard I am comforted to know it's going to be in a place where I am loved and cared for. Where I have as much nature around me that I can tolerate and then some. I am going to be in a place that my mind, body and soul can truly reach the place where I want to be. Is this 'magical thinking' on my part? Not hardly! There is no 'magic place' in the world that can fix anyone. But there ARE places you can go that FIT your needs to continue on that journey. Just because where I'm going is beautiful and serene with lots of areas where I can meditate and do soul searching the PLACE is not going to fix me. It is simply somewhere that I need to be to continue my work on myself.  I understand that it's ME that has to do the work. And so, I will end this post with one of my favorite prayers:

The Knots Prayer

Dear God,
please untie the knots
that are in my mind,
my heart and my life.
Remove the have not's,
the can not's and the do not's
that I have in my mind.

Erase the will not's,
may not's, and
might not's that find
a home in my heart.

Release me from the could not's,
would not's and
should not's that obstruct my life.

And most of all, dear God,
I ask that you remove from my mind
my heart and my life all of the am not's
that I have allowed to hold me back,
especially the thought
that I am not good enough.

Amen.

(author known to God)