So many emotions all over the place, but yet, a feeling of calm and peace over it all. So tomorrow I pack for the last time. I've actually been packed for a week, but that was to make sure I had what I needed to bring for the short term. I can actually get the rest later. I read a poem today that touched my heart so deeply that I think I shall incorporate this as a mantra while I meditate:
Let the light in
with each breath I take
Let it reach every corner of me
and chase the darkness away
with each breath that I release -
release with it
all negativity
Let nothing but peace
surround my being
Let nothing but peace
be my feeling
Give me the strength
to love myself
as I love others
to give to myself
as I give to others
Help me not to dwell on my past
and the things that can't be undone
May I believe in the future
and all the things I can become
Let love be all that dwells
and be all that expels
From within me.
Help my spirit to truly be free...
All day long I've gotten 'messages' like the one above. Letting me know everything will be ok. If you pay attention to Angelic Number combination's as I do, then you know the significance of repeated numbers and/or the attention made to pay attention to certain number sequences. Today's number was 3:00. And the message that goes along with this combination is:
3's and 0's, such as 300 or 330 - God and the ascended masters are trying to get your attention, most likely with respect to a matter related to your Divine purpose. Is there any guidance that you've been ignoring lately? If so, you may be feeling stuck right now. This number sequence is heaven's way of alerting you to the fact that you must do your part in the co-creation process. This means listening to and following your Divine guidance to take certain actions.
I have interpreted this as what I'm doing is the RIGHT thing for me. I have been feeling 'stuck' the past week due to "short timers" knowing the move towards my new life was coming, but wasn't here yet. I need to do my part? Oh heck yea, that means get ON that plane and don't worry.......listening to and following my Divine guidance? My desire is even stronger now. This is a pull I can't put into words. I just know that in my heart, deep within my heart, is a sense of knowing that this is the best thing for me. I have halted turning inward the past few days. My time with my grand daughters and my daughter was more important to me right now. With only a few days left to see them, I felt that I could take a 'break' from all the soul healing I've been doing. But it seems that tonight, now that the house is quiet and the girls have left, the universe is letting me know that it hasn't forgotten about me! And while I sit here and try to type this, I am hit left and right with messages, emails, postings, YouTube video's and the like of stuff that is yet again empowering, validating, comforting, and enriching.
So tonight, I will light a white candle and meditate again. And as I do this, I not only will be asking my Angel to keep my heart safe and warm, but I will also be extending a white light to the people of Japan. To help assist them with peace in their hearts. And as I lay my head down tonight, I will dream of trees, streams, lakes to swim and fish in, the new sites I am to see and experience, the cities, the towns, the people who are going to be coming into my life.....and all the new things I have in store to learn and see and do.
I really realize now......in this moment in time.....it has hit me. I am running TO something, not FROM anything. I am going to be purging a lot of garbage I've keep inside all my life, and while that part will be hard I am comforted to know it's going to be in a place where I am loved and cared for. Where I have as much nature around me that I can tolerate and then some. I am going to be in a place that my mind, body and soul can truly reach the place where I want to be. Is this 'magical thinking' on my part? Not hardly! There is no 'magic place' in the world that can fix anyone. But there ARE places you can go that FIT your needs to continue on that journey. Just because where I'm going is beautiful and serene with lots of areas where I can meditate and do soul searching the PLACE is not going to fix me. It is simply somewhere that I need to be to continue my work on myself. I understand that it's ME that has to do the work. And so, I will end this post with one of my favorite prayers:
The Knots Prayer
Dear God,
please untie the knots
that are in my mind,
my heart and my life.
Remove the have not's,
the can not's and the do not's
that I have in my mind.Erase the will not's,
may not's, and
might not's that find
a home in my heart.Release me from the could not's,
would not's and
should not's that obstruct my life.And most of all, dear God,
I ask that you remove from my mind
my heart and my life all of the am not's
that I have allowed to hold me back,
especially the thought
that I am not good enough.Amen.(author known to God)
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